Scared :-/

I went to my girl doctor yesterday. It's never fun when you have to go in the first place, but it had been two years since I've even had a check up, so I was extra nervous to be checked out. However, I didn't think that it was going to be too big of a deal. I'd tell them that I haven't been able to get pregnant for two years & they'd maybe just recommend me to see a fertility specialist and my husband to get checked too and that would be the extent of it right now. I was unfortunately wrong. :( he was checking me over and it seemed to be fine, until he moved to my right ovary. And there was this sound in his voice that concerned me. From there he told me that my ovary was swollen, which indicated a cyst or a possible tumor...even writing this is making my hands and feet sweat and me to feel sick in my stomach. So ttoady, I have to go to the hospital to have an ultrasound to check it out & a scheduled "laparoscopy" on September the 6th. I'm so scared right now. He told me not to worry too much, which put me a little at ease, but I can't help but freak out. :-/. This is NOT what I was expecting at all. I hope that all will be ok down there & that my dreams of having my own little baby aren't impossible now. What is wrong with me? Why can't I get Pregnant like all of the other ladies up here in Utah that seem to blink & then out pops a baby? I'm sorry & I don't mean any disrespect for all of you cute mommas out there. I should stop complaining, but this is definitely a trial right now. :(. Luckily the Lord doesn't give us any trials that we can't handle, right? I'm so sorry to be so negative, but it seems to help relieve some stress writing this down. On the up side, I'm so grateful for my wonderful husband that gave me a sweet blessing last night. With his support with Gods, my family & friends, I know we can make it through anything.

My Barbie Jeep

Last week my hubby and I finally bought our second car! :) After sharing one car for the first three years of our marriage, we decided that it was about time that we buy my "mom car." Haha....and nope, I'm not preggo yet, but at least when the time is right...I'll be a little more prepared. :) Speaking of, it'll be so nice when I can actually buckle up my little baby in the back seat of my barbie jeep. Lucky for me, I get to go to the gyno next week!!! Woopdideedoo! ;) So NOT excited for that, but hopefully I'll get some answers of what's going on and maybe some treatment options to be able to have a baby one day...just gotta keep the faith, right? But anyways, for family night on Monday night, Jared and I drove my car up the Provo canyon to test out the four wheel drive & it was so much fun! :) It'll be so nice to have that feature when the winter comes, too! And it was so nice to catch the sunset once we got to the top of the lookout point! All of the colors of the sky & the lights from the town were just beautiful!! As we drove back home, we were listening to a bunch of comedians on the "Sirius" satellite radio & decided that we really need to see a comedian show! Lol..it was a fun night! Here are a few pics :)